I lost myself. Lame day, gotta pee. J? Already? Ok.

Supersonic - J.J. Fad
This is one of my favorite discharges, 1209, orly. Splash from the 80's anyway.

The Mix Tape - Jack's Mannequin
This song has the ability to push me over the edge; burst into tears or into song, depends on my mood. I REALLY recommend downloading this one.

Daughters - John Mayer
No Such Thing - John Mayer
Oh Johnny boy. Just two of my favorites, all of his lyrics are fantastic.

DVNO - Justice
Cute song, reminds me of Scenes and Sirens. :D

So today I took Mando, Lavi and Ivan to Chipolte, then we went to Target, and Lavi LOCKED MY KEYS IN MY CAR. My Mom had to come and give me a spare, but i didn't tell her before I went to Target, so she got pissed, but she said she was tired of disciplining me... so nothing happened...

I'm on it. ( Today sucked SO much ass. )

I'm losing my shit. I was trying to make today a good day, but somehow it wasn't. I left my Dad's and then went over to Mando's, to just hang. We played Gears of War for a while, but then switched to Rockband! So we practiced Hysteria by Muse, and then just played a bunch of random stuff. Then my sister came over and she just pissed me off. She acts so different when she hangs out with Mando and I can't figure out why. She doesn't like him, so... And then she's just been immature ad rude the whole night. I'm a little hungry, might go make a vegan pot pie. Tomorrow, I'm gonna be working on my fan site and my fan fics, and practicing Rockband with Mando. I think I'll call my buddy Cody over. Hm. Peace.

Nothing happened today. My Dad's girlfriend Stacy is here, and today I hung out at Mando's with him and Ian, and we mainly talked about sex. It was weird, but really nice, cause it felt like we had been friends for years. I wonder how my birthdays' gonna go.

So, because I'm way super cool, I looked up serial killers last night.
When I went to bed, I had really scary dreams.
I had a dream that I was in a continuation of the game Twisted Metal Black, and there was this creepy underground sewer thing that I was trapped in.
So the host of the game caught me and handcuffed me upside down on a sewer wall. Then he got razor blades and meat hooks, and started cutting my stomach with the razor blades, and then he ripped the meat hooks through my legs, and I started screaming, and I knew I was crying in the dream, but I couldn't see tears or anything. So then I knew I had to get down so I kept trying to get the cuffs off, but they were impossible. The host of the game was talking to me about his hero, some amazing serial killer, and what he did and how he killed people. He showed me this thing that looked like an eyelash, and he told me he was going to cut my Achilles tendon, but I yelled at him to shut the fuck up. He got really quiet, and he stopped talking and he looked really angry, and then he jabbed a meat hook in my eye.

And then I woke up. Besides scary dreams last night, I learned about some super hot serial killer. He was called the Casanova Killer, and his name is John Paul Knowles. But he's only hot like, before his capture and when he was younger. But eve BEFORE learning about him, Mando called me and invited me over because Steven and his buddy were coming over. Which I think means Mando knows I like Steven. But, I'm at my Dad's, so that meant no, I couldn't go over. I think Mando might come over later today, but probably not, cause I haven't heard back from him. I think I'll redesign some pages on my site, play some Guitar Hero, maybe I'll go swimming. My Dad's girlfriend is here now, and I love her to death. I wonder how I'm gonna spend the last day of summer. Probably doing nothing. We can always hope, right? Kay peace.

So today I went over to Mando's and his friend Ian was there, so we hung out. Then my sister and her friend came over, which kinda pissed me off, so I left for a while. Then I came back and we watched 300 for a while. Then we started Rock Band! At first, I was on guitar, but I ended up playing drums, and I got up to medium. I think I'll try hard next time, cause I got 100% most of the time. Mando said the couch was small and uncomfortable, and I was like "Yeah, I know, and it's even worse to sleep on," and Mando was like "Oh yeah, you slept on this with Steven, right?" And I was like yeah. But then Mando was like "Nothing happened, right?" and I said no. I kinda fee bad lying, but I don't really wanna tell him the truth either. Anyway, then I had to go to class. I was SO unprepared, but I worked through things and now I'm caught up. I used to have 58 of 76 points, but NOW I have 66 of 76! I think I've got the best grade in the class! I still have to take two quizzes and do a small exercise, but then I'll be completely caught up, and my grade will only get better! I'm pretty happy now, so I think I'm gonna do my work in a good mood.

So today I got pissed off at lots of stuff. First, Mando said he'd text me when he got out of summer school, but he didn't. So I went to Half Price Books and bought cheap magazines with Mandy. So I got back at 3, and my Mom said Steven was here. So I went down to meet him, and we talked for a while, and I put bandaids on his fingers, cause I don't want them to get infected... So then I took the city bus with my mom to my class, which I HATE because I have to leave at like 3:00, and my class starts at 5:30... Oh well, at least we're saving LOTS of money. So I went to class, then I came home and hung out with Mando and Steven. They invited me to spend the night, so I came home to ask my Mom, she said no a thousand times, and I left the house, super pissed off. But then I complained to Mando, which made me feel better. Then we had our awesome group hug, and Steven smelled good again. His bandaids were still on.

Today was pretty cool. Hung out with Mando and Steven. Nothing completely eventful, except me and the guys had a tickle fight... and Steven smelled good and he told me his insanely melancholy life story. And Mando got in a fight with his Mom. And we had super nice hugs. So then the REAL exciting shit happened after midnight. Hemingway [Pete Wentz's dog] posted a myspace bulletin that read "Oh, you wanna play THOSE games?" and the body of the bulletin was a phone number. I checked the area code and it was, in fact, Chicago area code. So I called the number, and I got PETE WENTZ'S ANSWERING MACHINE. I have an mp3 of his voice mail, if you'd care to hear it before he changes his number, you can listen here: http://boomp3.com/listen/bygkn9l0p_o/pete-anserting-machine.

Besides that, nothing much happened today. Tomorrow, I'm hanging with Mando and Steven, then me and Mandy are gonna go to Half Price Books. But now, I'm gonna pee, do 10 Drabbles, and heat up some spaghetti... Night.